Is it time to break up?

Nardil has given me stability for many years to be able to live "normally." I need to remember this. Because recently I've been wondering whether it is time to break up with my smelly, old, bright orange friend. I experienced my first depression in a long time last month. I was not myself. I was quiet, unhumorous, moody, and nothing gave me any morsel of enjoyment. After 8 days, somehow it disappeared, only to reappear again a week later. I thought I would be in for several months of needing to be patient while transitioning medications and for this I need to find a gray-haired doctor who can confidently advise in this matter. I got prepared to tell work. But then, after my latest refill a few days ago, the depression disappeared again. Every time I've had a significant re-emergence of anxiety or depression it is because of a change in the manufacturer of a medication. However, in this case the manufacturer had been the same as always, so was it a faulty bottle of phenelzine? I don't understand. Right now I am not depressed, but I am miserable nonetheless, trying to transition back into feeling OK while all the issues that plague me in my life seem to have strengthened and pinned me up against the wall. I feel like I've lost my confidence. I'm limping through these past few days trying to find my balance. I'm hating the Nardil and I want to get off of it. This is why I say I need to remember what Nardil did for me in the first place.