Records

It's been so many months since I've posted to this blog that I forgot about it. I had been doing a Google search about Nardil and my own site came up. Looking back at previous postings, this blog serves as an excellent record of my experience with Nardil. Recently my mood has been quite low and I wondered if I should increase my dose of Nardil. Looking back at previous postings, it seems that increasing Nardil beyond 60 mg had been only marginally helpful. But what comes next? If I can't increase my dose, there aren't many other medications that can be combined with Nardil. Should I go in for the rTMS?

Nardil, one year later

Thank you Nardil for keeping me semi-stable for the past year, along with accomplice Lithium. Nardil was the medication I started taking just after my last unhelpful ECT treatment. I remember those first few months of a roller coaster of side effects, especially the euphoria. These days, though, I wish I felt some sense of euphoria. The soft downs and rebounds of depression continue, with the average of my mood being a few points lower than I remember. I remember having more spunk, more excitement, more hope more than several months ago. Something broke and I've come down a few steps to a more apathetic state. When I say "spunk" and "excitement," mind you, it is all relative within my moods. It is so difficult to pursue and be in relationships while in this state. But I'll keep plugging away.